T.R.O.U.B.L.E.D

Ahhhh!!!Finally I get an opportunity to be with myelf...What with my parents and brother breathing down my neck 24/7..It's a relief when night falls and I can be with myself...The most important question now arises is what do I do when I am all alone...I write my journal...The one place where I bare open all my feelings and thoughts(the good ones and the not so good ones and the definite naughty and ugly ones too)

Now that everybody's mind has started rolling on about what I do think let me share this one idea I had while sleeping.

I was an Interactor and from there I got this thing about social service and maybe doing something which would give me inner peace and I did just that...There is this orphnage where epilepsy affected kids stay...epilepsy is a neurologival disease...yu get fits and seizures from time to time and it can be life threating...Some of the children there are deaf and dmb too...Some unable to do the basic chores of daily life...Even something as mundane as being able to eat your own food...

My first visit left me with tears and somewhat guilty that I had everything right going for me and I never appreciate the luxury available to me...These kids survive on the donations received from the government or from the other patrons like you and me...That visit changed my focus on it...In life if the one good deed I have done is that I have almost made it a ritual to be part of their lives...I go there on every ocassion possible...

Birthdays of every family member in my house(there are not many just the 4 of us), my parents' anniversary...the festivals....during holi took them colors...during diwali with the firecrackers and sweets...Just hoping to make their day bit brighter...

The selfishness on my part is that I go there because it makes me feel good about myself and the satisfaction it gives me...The smile on their faces...The hands folded in prayer when they eat and their thank you's is enough to give anyone a high...even someone as cold as me..!!

Guys, life is too short...They say make the most of it and party but in reality life never is a party...its just us humans behaving like ostriches and hiding our faces beneath the sand so that we don't have to face reality...

Think About It!!